Far from fine

You ask me what’s wrong,
But I can’t tell you
That doesn’t mean I’m fine,
It means I cannot find the words to tell you how I feel.

I said I was ok and you believed me
When really I wanted you to see through the lies,
How could you not see the pain I was in?

You think I’m fine because I’m not crying
But I’m so numb I cannot cry
It doesn’t mean that I’m ok.

I told you I feel like shit
You said I couldn’t know what shit felt like
I think you’re wrong.

You tell me I need to pull myself together
And to help myself
I think if it was that easy I would have already done it.

JmaC