Insecurity constantly loomed over me watching me
Even wen I think it’s gone it’s not
It’s waiting there in the shadows
Waiting 4 wen I’m happy unsuspecting attacks
A thick blanket that covers my mind
Making me feel like I’m drowning
Twisting my thoughts pinning them against me
Choking me until I can’t breathe
Until I’m over thinking every action I make
Every conversation I’ve had
Destroying my life
Destroying me
& wen I think it’s gone 4 good
Wen I’m finally happy
It’s just waiting 4 another time
To poison my mind even more than it already has
It’s never gone
It’s always mocking me
Because it’s a part of me
A part of me that I subconsciously created
A part of me that I’ll always hate.
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