Personal poems

SUICIDAL TEMPTATIONS

Shattered soul, tattered mind.
The way back is what I hope to find.
Broken dreams lost without a trace.
Lately I’ve been feeling a little out of place.
Broken heart fills me with sorrow.
Please God tell me there will be a brighter day tomorrow.
There’s only a temporary enjoyment I feel.
If you looked deep into my eyes they will reveal.
The hurt, the pain.
Please God tell me I’m not insane.

EMOTIONAL WEATHER

A rainbow
Colours in the sky
Sunlight
Reflection in the window
Rain
Downpour of my heart
Storm
Anger letting go
Snow
Peaceful in the night
Fog
Troubles to get through

FINALLY

lying on the grass
night has fallen
looking up at the big dark and starry sky
I get lost up there
time disappears
everything melts away and for a moment
I don’t have to worry

SUICIDAL TEMPTATIONS

PERFECT

Water pouring down around me,
Music to my ears,
Washing my worries away.
Lightning shooting out from the clouds, nature’s fireworks they say.
Thunder pounding, making my heart beat fast, the rush.
The feeling is incomprehensible, complicated, and sweet.
Perfect……

I don’t think you understand exactly how I feel
I don’t see how you could, you’d have to live my life for real
you weren’t there with me so you cant know what it was like
To see and feel so much mis-like
If only my nights would allow me to sleep
without flashes of the past haunting me deep…

BLISSFUL RAPTURE

I don’t know what’s wrong with me
My heart feels anything but free
I feel captured
but it’s a blissful rapture

I AM DYING INSIDE

My heart is hidden by happiness and pride
But in reality I am dying inside
Slowly my corpse keeps getting sicker
While all my emotions seem to do is flicker

THEY LEAVE ME HEART BROKEN

They take away my family
They tear us all apart
They try to erase the memories
But can’t erase the marks
They cut me open
And left me with the scars
They left me with the bandage
But took away my heart……….